Living Presently Sitting at His Feet

Hosea 6:1 “He has torn us to pieces but He will heal us; He has injured us but He will bind up our wounds.” That feeling of God breaking me has been one of much pain. It hurts to be broken, to have God dig into my heart. The walls I’ve put up have become thick, heavy stones, and God has been knocking them down. He’s taking everything apart. He’s removing me. But He’ll bind me back together. He isn’t just tearing me apart to leave me like this. He’s tearing me apart so that He can build me back up to being more like Him.  Being broken is hard because I want to put myself back together. And whenever I start noticing myself doing the work, God breaks me a little bit more. He wants to be the one to put me back. It’s only Him who can do that. I can’t be both the potter and clay. I must step back and let Him do His work. I have to wait on the Lord and let Him be God.  The beautiful thing about being broken is that as painful as it is in the moment, the light at the en...

Revelation 3:19-20 “Those whom I love I rebuke and discipline. So be earnest and repent. Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person and they with me.” I don’t like being disciplined. I don’t like getting in trouble so I try my hardest to not do wrong. To stay away from authoritative figures. The Lord is an authoritative figure, but He’s also Father. He loves me to literal death. He’s not someone I should try to stay away from. And because He loves me, he rebukes and disciplines me. A good parent doesn’t let their kid get away with being disobedient. They discipline the kid because they love them and want them to grow up and behave, be a good adult one day. That’s how God is. He rebukes me because He wants me to live correctly, to behave, and understand.  I shouldn’t be afraid of that. Because it shows me how much God cares for me. How much He wants me to be closer to Him. Being rebuked an...

Proverbs 12:1 “Whoever loves discipline loves knowledge, but whoever hates correction is stupid.” Oh boy, this verse has been such a key verse to me these past three months. I’ve been disciplined so many times over things that I’ve never been disciplined over before. The first time the disciplining began, I thought it was so stupid. It made me so mad and I really fought God and leadership. I didn’t understand why I was being disciplined over the little things that it was. As time went on though, this verse started popping up more and more. It hit me hard, I don’t want to be stupid. I want to love knowledge. I started praying about an attitude change towards discipline and correction. As the weeks went by, God changed my heart. It was a gradual and slow change, but I began to accept discipline and correction. I began to take it to heart and let it sink in. I began to listen instead of fight and let it change me. I stopped being so stubborn and learned from it. I want to love kno...

2 Timothy 2:2 “And the things you have heard me say in the presence of many witnesses entrust to reliable people who will also be qualified to teach others.” Entrust to reliable people who will also be qualified to teach others. I desire to be someone who can be entrusted. I want people to know they can come to me with anything and trust me. There are always those people who you know you can’t trust with anything. I used to be one of those people. It might not have been that people knew they couldn’t trust me. But I knew they couldn’t. Whatever they told me, I’d go and tell my friends. I wasn’t someone who trustworthy or reliable.  I’ve changed though, thankfully. I’ve learned to be trustworthy. I’ve learned it’s better to have people trust you then not. I’ve learned the hurt and experienced the discipline of not being trustworthy. My eyes have been opened to the damage it causes when someone comes to me wanting to trust me and rely on me, and I turn around and gossip ab...