Living Presently Sitting at His Feet

Psalm 51:8 “Let me hear joy and gladness: let the bones you have crushed rejoice.” For a couple of years, people have talked to me about getting broken by God. About what it means for God to crush me. They’ve shared their stories of God breaking them and it always impacted me. Especially because they were so joyful, bringing praise to God so easily. I craved to have that type of joy and to be able to praise God the way they did. But I never wanted to go through the process of being broken. It’s a painful process that I didn’t want to have to endure. I said I wanted God to change me, but I wasn’t completely willing to change and to let Him break me. I didn’t want to surrender, and it became hard for me to praise God. I realized that my relationship with Christ wasn’t what it needed to be, but I wasn’t willing to let God do His work in me. My spirit craved to be broken and to draw near to God, but my flesh refused and fought God so hard.  Through the years, God put people in m

Joshua 13:14 “But to the tribe of Levi he gave no inheritance, since the food offerings presented to the Lord, the God of Israel, are their inheritance, as he promised them.” A couple of months ago, Jean McClure was doing a women’s study over this verse. A few weeks ago, I started reading Joshua for myself for the first time, and when I got to this verse, I remembered the study. This verse has become very special to me in the past week, reading about how God is my inheritance. My whole life, I’ve always been excited to live in a big house with nice things and being able to have money to spend. But as my relationship with the Lord grows, the more I laugh at what I used to want. I don’t need/want a worldly inheritance, I want God and eternity with my Creator.  As time goes on, the more I realize that choosing God is hard, because the Spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak (Mark 14:38). Jesus says in the Gospels to sell everything and follow Him. That right there is not somet

Matthew 14:29-32 “‘Come,’ He said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, ‘Lord, save me!’ Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. ‘You of little faith,’ he said, ‘why did you doubt?’” How often does Jesus tell me to come? More often then I obey. In the mornings when He says, “Anna, come spend time with me,” and all I do is lay in bed sleeping longer then I need too or scroll through my phone for no reason. I hesitate, afraid of what God’s going to tell me. Because most of the time, the things He has to tell me are things I don’t want to hear. They’re always really good things, things that will grow me. But sometimes, growing hurts. But I need to remember, that getting out of the boat will result in seeing the one whom my soul desires. It will draw me closer to Christ and it will be so sweet.  So I get out of the boat, and I get excited to draw n

Psalm 34:3 “Glorify the Lord with me; let us exalt his name together.” We were all created to glorify the Lord. So many people struggle with their purpose. They wonder why they’re here on earth, and they go about trying to find who they are and what they are supposed to do with their lives. Well, the answer is in the Bible. We were created to glorify and praise God. To honor Him and worship Him all the days of our lives. That is our goal.  In one of my Bible classes that I took in high school, we studied the purpose of life. That is when I fully had a written down reason as to the creation of people. We were created by God for God. To always be bringing Him praise. When I studied that in class, it didn’t click in my mind until maybe a year later. We all go through life struggling with the great purpose of life, when it’s simply to praise God.  To praise God isn’t just singing worship songs to Him all the time, that’s one of the many ways to praise Him. We can praise Him i