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IBS 68 - Matthew 14:29-32

Matthew 14:29-32
“‘Come,’ He said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, ‘Lord, save me!’ Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. ‘You of little faith,’ he said, ‘why did you doubt?’”

How often does Jesus tell me to come? More often then I obey. In the mornings when He says, “Anna, come spend time with me,” and all I do is lay in bed sleeping longer then I need too or scroll through my phone for no reason. I hesitate, afraid of what God’s going to tell me. Because most of the time, the things He has to tell me are things I don’t want to hear. They’re always really good things, things that will grow me. But sometimes, growing hurts.
But I need to remember, that getting out of the boat will result in seeing the one whom my soul desires. It will draw me closer to Christ and it will be so sweet.  So I get out of the boat, and I get excited to draw nearer to Christ. But like Peter, I begin to focus on the pain and worry, on the reality of the world instead on seeking the face of Jesus, and I began to fall. I let the world overwhelm me, I let my fears and anxieties get in the way of Jesus and myself. That’s when I have to remember to cry out, “Lord, save me!” 
Immediately Jesus reaches out his hand and catches me. He upholds me and pulls me out of the spot I’m drowning in. And then he punches me in the face and asks “Why did you doubt?” I never have an answer to this question. There is never any reason ever to doubt. He is always showing me that I can always trust Him. That he will always provide. That he will always be with me. 
I then have to apologize for doubting. Because I know that he has better things for me then I do for myself. He will carry me and he will make a way before me. 

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