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IBS 4 - Luke 8:22-25

Luke 8:22-25
“One day Jesus said to his disciples, “Let us go over to the other side of the lake.” So they got into a boat and set out. As they sailed, he fell asleep. A squall came down on the lake, so that the boat was being swamped, and they were in great danger. The disciples went and woke him, saying, “Master, Master, we’re going to drown!” He got up and rebuked the wind and the raging waters; the storm subsided, and all was calm. “Where is your faith?” He asked his disciples. In fear and amazement they asked one another, “Who is this? He commands even the winds and the water, and they obey him.”

“He got up and rebuked the wind and the raging waters; the storm subsided, and all was calm.” That’s me. I’ve always felt like there was a storm inside of me. Raging winds and rain, lighting and thunder. Destructive. I’ve been like that my whole life, storms going on in my heart. 
When I would cry out to God, nothing would change. I didn’t have the faith that Christ could change who I was. An angry beast. It was a constant battle until one day it hit me. I was trying to stay in control, wanting God to change me, but not letting Him. It was painful to know that I needed to give it all up to God, but the stubbornness in my heart refused to let go. 
I would fight God, thinking that one day, I would win. The storm would get louder and started to cover the soft sound of Christ. His voice became unknown to me. I started to get mad at Him, blaming Him for not talking to me, but it was me who wouldn’t listen. 
Finally, I realized how far into the storm I was. I got scared, I was all alone. I begged God to lead me back to the shore, to show me that I could put my faith in Him. And as I sat there crying out to God, He rebuked the storm inside of me. The dark clouds went away and I could see. 


Application: I’ll continue to put my faith in Christ and trust in Him and when I start doubting I’ll pray with Kaydra that I won’t doubt the calm voice of Christ. 

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