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IBS 5 - Mark 10:46-52

Mark 10:46-52
“Now they came to Jericho. As He went out of Jericho with His disciples and a great multitude, blind Bartimaeus, the son of Timaeus, sat by the road begging. And when he heard that it was Jesus of Nazareth, he began to cry out and say, “Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on me!” Then many warned him to be quiet; but he cried out all the more, “Son of David, have mercy on me!” So Jesus stood still and commanded him to be called. Then they called the blind man, saying to him, “Be of good cheer. Rise, He is calling you.” And throwing aside his garment, he rose and came to Jesus. So Jesus answered and said to him, “What do you want me to do for you?” The blind man said to him, “Rabboni, that I may receive my sight.” Then Jesus said to him, “Go your way; your faith has made you well.” And immediately he received his sight and followed Jesus on the road.”

When this man heard that Jesus was in town, he begged to talk to Him. And when the blind man was able to talk to Him, Jesus healed him and Jesus told him to go on his way, but he followed Jesus on the road. I wish I was like that all the time, but instead I don’t follow. I walk away and go on doing my own thing. I don’t want to continue begging God for something, then walk away. I want to follow him like this blind man did.
Way to often do I beg and plead for Jesus, and once I get Him, I leave. I don’t have the faith to continue walking with Him. I think, “yes he showed up, but who knows, he might disappear, forgetting all about me.” I don’t have the faith that he’ll stick around, so I 
 walk away from Him. I fully know that God will never leave me or forsake me. He is faithful and true. He keeps his promises, and he promised he’d never leave me. I know that he loves me unconditionally. He constantly has to remind me of that. Saying, “Anna, open your eyes. I love you! I am not going anywhere! I’m here with you, always! You don’t leave me!” But I still doubt, and I don’t know why. I don’t want to doubt, I want to have the faith to keep walking with Him. I want to believe. 
Everyone who has told me, “I’m not going anywhere”, has ended up leaving my life without saying goodbye. I’m afraid Christ is going to do that to me. I know he won’t, but it’s hard to have the faith. 

Application: When I start walking away or doubting, or feeling as if I’m starting to walk away from Christ, I’ll pray that God will keep me close and hold on to me tight. And Vanessa will keep me accountable!!! : )

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