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IBS 1- Hebrews 11:1

Hebrews 11:1
“Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.”


Faith is confidence in what we…do not see. Having faith in the unseen is in an incredible gift. It’s something you have to learn. It takes a while to get it down. Even the greatest Christians today will struggle with their faith. Thankfully, we have some good examples of what a faithful person looks like.
“By faith Abraham, when called to go to a place he would later receive his inheritance, obeyed and went, even though he did not know where he was going.” (V.8). Why is it so hard to have faith like that? To say, “Ok, God, I’ll go. I’ll do whatever it is you have for me.” Why do I struggle and fight Him? It’s a constant battle. 
I tell God too many times, “No, I don’t want to.” And then it turns into, “Fine, I’ll do what you want me to do, but only when I want to do it.” Then eventually that turns into, “I’m sorry, I’ll do as you say in your timing.” Then, even when I do as God says, even when I know it’s the right thing, I still fight as I’m going through with whatever it is He has for me. “Are you sure God? Is this really what your plan is?” I question and fight and go back and forth. I tell God, “no”, too many times. Why do I make it about myself? Why can’t I just submit to God and say “ok” the first time He asks? Its because I lack faith. I was raised in a home where if my mom asked me to clean the kitchen and I had a problem with doing that, then I was supposed to clean it and ask her questions later. Not question her before. I’ve had that engraved in my mind. Why can’t I do that with God? He has more power then my mom. I should be way more submissive to Him then to anyone else. 
I want the faith that will put my stubbornness aside and I’ll do as God says without questioning. When God told me to go through Ignite, I straight up said no. I tried to figure a way out and open as many other doors as I could. I kept trying to get different internships with different ministries. But God kept closing those doors and that was painful. Eventually, I told God okay, but once again, when I want to go. God just laughed at me and waited for me to listen. After another few months, it became clear to me to go when God wanted me to. When I choose to follow God instead of myself, peace flowed through me. But I still questioned it. Now that I’m here, I have no doubt that I’m supposed to be here. I believe God put me and everyone of my classmates here for a specific reason, I just keep fighting Him. 

I want the faith that Abraham had. I want the willingness to do as God says the second He says it. Trusting in the unseen. Trusting that God has my life and I have no need to worry. 

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