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IBS 2 - Hebrews 11:6

Hebrews 11:6
“And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.”

Earnestly seek Him. Seriously seek Him. You can’t just do that half-hearted. You’re faith can’t be Luke-warm. You’re either all in or all out.  
My whole life I’ve always been Luke-warm. I thought I was all in. I went to a Christian School, I went to church and youth group. I prayed… every now and then. I read my Bible.. at school. I went on missions trips and invested in youth group…when my parents made me go. My family’s a Christian family, my dad’s a pastor. Jesus has always been a common topic to talk about everyday. 
I got to a point where I became numb to it all. In “On Being a Servant of the God” I read, “ In Christian Service, a sensitive spirit and a tender heart are absolutely essential; but we can easily become calloused. Then our work becomes routine and perfunctory, and we say with the backslidden priests of Malachi’s day, ‘Oh what a weariness.’” I had become calloused. I stopped listening to everything and became a pro at tuning out whoever was teaching. I searched for God, but I didn’t take my faith seriously. I didn’t search enough. When I’d pray and God didn’t answer me right then and there with a loud booming voice, I got mad at Him. My faith began to fail.
I became very good at being a mask wearer. People would look at me and say “She’s got it all together, she loves Jesus and her family is perfect.” I made sure to keep that mask on at all times. I stopped seeking God earnestly, and the mask became harder and harder to take off, and eventually I just left it on. I became the christian girl that I never wanted to be. I became fake in my faith. My heart turned cold. 
It took me a while to realize this. Up until this past summer did I realize that seriously seeking God was not something I did. I started peeling off the mask; layer by layer. I’m starting to understand once again what earnestly seeking after Him means. 

Application: When I do my devotions, don’t just read, but take in. Do it wholeheartedly and start peeling that mask off.

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